Sunday, August 26, 2007
The End Is Near.
I can smell it.
It's really near now.
I don't know when it's coming
But I know it's soon.
New Camp,
New Life,
New Friends,
New Job
And The Old Me
No more faking to people.
No more that anti social side of me.
No more that kind of life i live now.
Well, Thats wad i wished.
If the new camp is worst or the same state.
I really can't imagine wad else could happen.
I think this is already rock bottom for me.
If i fall even deeper after going to the new camp.
I'll just....take it as it's fated for me to suffer now for the better in the future.
Anyway, my life have stopped since i got into that camp.
It's Big Pause.
Games?
Dota?
World Of Warcraft?
Other Online Games?
Well, I have to say that the person up there really don't wan me to play anymore games.
He took away my time, my graphics card and my money to get a new com.
Ok I get your point. Don Kill My Com Alright?
I still want to blog and chat in msn.
So Now, i'm more into shows.
Heroes, The Office, etc.
Animes Too.
Naruto, bleach, etc.
Sometimes, I really got very emotional when watching shows because i'm so into the show that i thought i'm inside the show.
Sometimes i really wish i could just throw my life aside and just go into the show.
Watching Shows is like an Escape for me.
Same for playing RPG games that i'm really hooked in.
Maybe it's because sometimes it reminds me abit of my own life.
Songs too, Their Lyrics sometimes remind me of my life, my feelings and also my Past.
Those Reminders Could really bring me way deep Inside.
Well, I've lost my MP3, maybe i'll just sing to myself.
This Jap Song playing right now,
Keep playing in my head.
Bleach's Opening Song.
Especially the Lyrics Although they sound dumb to some people but not to me.
They just keeping flashing in my head.
Also Remind me of.....
I want to live in a World of Peace
Without Conflict, Like the One I've seen in my Dreams.
I Just can't Keep it Inside
I've Gotta say it Out what I wanna Say.
The Bus stop at Twilight, on the way Home.
Saying ByeByeBye to the Sad Backs of Others.
Your Face doesn't Show your Fighting pose.
A World like the One I've seen in my Dreams
Without Conflict, Daily Peace.
But in Reality, I sometimes Worry about
Love And The Day to Day Grind.
Those Rolling Days!!
You Would Never Hold a Lie, No Never.
All My Loving, Without it, I Can't Go on.
Sweet Love Like this I've Seen in my Dreams
Lovers Searching for Hidden Faces
But In Reality, the Days We Can't Meet
Continue On but I Believe in Lonely Days
Even if You Stumble, Way to Go...YEAHH YAY!
A Muddled Rolling Star.
i miss those days.
It's really near now.
I don't know when it's coming
But I know it's soon.
New Camp,
New Life,
New Friends,
New Job
And The Old Me
No more faking to people.
No more that anti social side of me.
No more that kind of life i live now.
Well, Thats wad i wished.
If the new camp is worst or the same state.
I really can't imagine wad else could happen.
I think this is already rock bottom for me.
If i fall even deeper after going to the new camp.
I'll just....take it as it's fated for me to suffer now for the better in the future.
Anyway, my life have stopped since i got into that camp.
It's Big Pause.
Games?
Dota?
World Of Warcraft?
Other Online Games?
Well, I have to say that the person up there really don't wan me to play anymore games.
He took away my time, my graphics card and my money to get a new com.
Ok I get your point. Don Kill My Com Alright?
I still want to blog and chat in msn.
So Now, i'm more into shows.
Heroes, The Office, etc.
Animes Too.
Naruto, bleach, etc.
Sometimes, I really got very emotional when watching shows because i'm so into the show that i thought i'm inside the show.
Sometimes i really wish i could just throw my life aside and just go into the show.
Watching Shows is like an Escape for me.
Same for playing RPG games that i'm really hooked in.
Maybe it's because sometimes it reminds me abit of my own life.
Songs too, Their Lyrics sometimes remind me of my life, my feelings and also my Past.
Those Reminders Could really bring me way deep Inside.
Well, I've lost my MP3, maybe i'll just sing to myself.
This Jap Song playing right now,
Keep playing in my head.
Bleach's Opening Song.
Especially the Lyrics Although they sound dumb to some people but not to me.
They just keeping flashing in my head.
Also Remind me of.....
Yui - Rolling Stars
I want to live in a World of Peace
Without Conflict, Like the One I've seen in my Dreams.
I Just can't Keep it Inside
I've Gotta say it Out what I wanna Say.
The Bus stop at Twilight, on the way Home.
Saying ByeByeBye to the Sad Backs of Others.
Your Face doesn't Show your Fighting pose.
A World like the One I've seen in my Dreams
Without Conflict, Daily Peace.
But in Reality, I sometimes Worry about
Love And The Day to Day Grind.
Those Rolling Days!!
You Would Never Hold a Lie, No Never.
All My Loving, Without it, I Can't Go on.
Sweet Love Like this I've Seen in my Dreams
Lovers Searching for Hidden Faces
But In Reality, the Days We Can't Meet
Continue On but I Believe in Lonely Days
Even if You Stumble, Way to Go...YEAHH YAY!
A Muddled Rolling Star.
i miss those days.
5:53 AM
Saturday, August 11, 2007
Deep Shit
Fuck.
I did something bad.
Something that might get me into big trouble.
Oh god, I would NEVER drink like that ever again.
This is the 2nd time i got drunk and this time it's much worst.
And Both Times, I sprained my ankle.
Whats with getting drunk and spraining ankle?
It's like peanut and butter.
I don get it.
ok it's the hangover.
Fuck i'm not getting drunk ever again.
No matter how depress.
damn it.
It's just so hard to have things go well for me,
it's just always becoming worst.
i wish i could go back in time and fix things up.
so many things i wanted to amend.
I really wish they have a time machine in heaven.
no i'm not talking suicidal, i'm just say that when my time comes and i go up,
i would really wish god can let me restart my life with my memory still intact.
please?
I did something bad.
Something that might get me into big trouble.
Oh god, I would NEVER drink like that ever again.
This is the 2nd time i got drunk and this time it's much worst.
And Both Times, I sprained my ankle.
Whats with getting drunk and spraining ankle?
It's like peanut and butter.
I don get it.
ok it's the hangover.
Fuck i'm not getting drunk ever again.
No matter how depress.
damn it.
It's just so hard to have things go well for me,
it's just always becoming worst.
i wish i could go back in time and fix things up.
so many things i wanted to amend.
I really wish they have a time machine in heaven.
no i'm not talking suicidal, i'm just say that when my time comes and i go up,
i would really wish god can let me restart my life with my memory still intact.
please?
1:20 PM
Monday, August 06, 2007
Confusing Messy Mess.
Camp Stuff Not Done.
Everything's not only not done,
They are in a bloody Mess.
Well, Confused about some stuff.
Quite Lost.
hmmm...
This Song Somehow Sums up how i'm feeling now...
very confused and lost feeling...this is feeling is like my first day of my primary school.
It Just started out with a......
I Didnt know that It Would End up Like this.
Oh god, how long am i going to be so sad and emo?
Someone Please Get me Out of My Camp.
Everything's not only not done,
They are in a bloody Mess.
Well, Confused about some stuff.
Quite Lost.
hmmm...
This Song Somehow Sums up how i'm feeling now...
very confused and lost feeling...this is feeling is like my first day of my primary school.
It Just started out with a......
I Didnt know that It Would End up Like this.
Oh god, how long am i going to be so sad and emo?
Someone Please Get me Out of My Camp.
5:38 AM
