Monday, June 12, 2006
Home Alone.
Hmmm...
My mum and my sis Went to Thailand Without me becos i have school, So I Have the Whole House to myself. Alone...At Least For 2 Weeks. I Should be happy...No Nagging, No more tolerating her unreasonable scoldings, No More Shutting Down your Computer By Switching off the Main Switch. I really should be glad...at least the first night which is tonight. But No, I'm not. I kinda feel something is missing...It's at first A Mix of happy and sad then it become like now...not really contented. Feel Kinda strange...no mood for games nor TV shows. Just Wanna Sit On the Sofa and Stone with all the lights off. Think About Stuff. Hmmm....Blogging too...i just wanna tell someone this, at least to let it out somewhere. Here i am, Blogging About it.
Is this the feeling i gonna get when i leave my mum to live somewhere else?
hmmm.
i seriously have NO LIFE in the Weekdays. really. I have school on tues,wed and thurs only. it's all 2pm to 6pm except wed it's 8am to 12pm. Then After School And On The Two Free Days(Mon&Fri), I'll Play Computer Games and Watch Rubbish Tv Shows Like WILD BOYS...LOL. GOD! GIVE MY WEEKDAY A LIFE! Well, Weekends their are more people that are free so i can like go Lan shop with them or probably Lunch or Dinner. BETTER THAN WEEKDAYS OK! Weekdays Almost everyday School Or Home. A B C D E Fucking Sian Lah. I Know I have said all this before but i just wanna say it again just for sake of letting them out and probably make me feel bettter.
argh...Miss My Mum...and Probably wish my sis die in some horrible death...ER I MEAN I WANT HER TO HAVE FUN. And Charls was telling me i can have parties or club everyday...i told him "FUCK OFF" With 150 bucks my mum gave me, i probably blast some RNB or Techno and Dance at home And Charls Said i Can Grind The Wall. Great. 150 bucks for three meals probably five for two weeks... 150 bucks, Go Clubbing 2 times probably gone liao. LOL.
Before i came back home today, i went for a walk around chinatown alone. Thinking about stuff... Comparing The Past and the Present. Remember Those days we took like 1 minute or even 1 second to choose wad to wear to go out? Now especially girls...they might take an hour or even a night to think about wad to wear. And Do You Remember Those Times That Sport Shoes Goes with anything , anywhere and anytime? Haha...So Much Have Changed Huh...As We Grow Older We Change and Have More Responsibilities. Sometimes It's Scary to Think what i've Accomplished So far for my Future. Cause I have Nothing Much to Think Of. LOL. I'm a very Dreamy Person, So I can Stone well, haha...How Wonderful if I would strike a lottery and don need to work for the rest of my life. What a impossible and Lazy dream huh...
I'm Kinda Felt Sad/Hate/Disappointed myself...STILL in ITE and Doing Totally Nothing Serious Accept my Driving Lesssons, Blurry Future, NO LIFE, Probably Zero Self-Confidence and ZERO determintation. ARGH.
Cant Sleep man...Donno why...Probably The Weird feeling about being alone at home at night or It's Just I Miss Ma. I felt sad not because i need to cook for myself or to do All the Chores, Just felt weird without my ma. Probably Sad is not the word la...Bahhhhhhhh
I Just Need Something to Watch...Something as good or better than Desperate Housewives or Lost Or Animes Like Naurto, Bleach, School Rumble, ETC.
I Just to get Hooked to the Show.
I Just Need The Feeling That Slowly Brings me Into The Show, Like I'm Inside the Show.
I Just Want to Stay In The Show And live With Them.
Maybe I Just Need to be More Mature and Be More Realistic.
But Is Heaven Just Like That?
What Is Heaven Like?
Issit Just like Man Predicted that Heaven is Made Up of Clouds and Sunlight Shining There Forever?
Or Issit in The Black Hole?
Or On Earth Itself? Under the Deep Sea where is too deep for humans to explore?
Or.........Do We Just Disappear? Nah...I Know Heaven's Somewhere.
Or.....................I Can Live Forever?
I Love My Ma.
She Will Live Forever With Me.
=)
My mum and my sis Went to Thailand Without me becos i have school, So I Have the Whole House to myself. Alone...At Least For 2 Weeks. I Should be happy...No Nagging, No more tolerating her unreasonable scoldings, No More Shutting Down your Computer By Switching off the Main Switch. I really should be glad...at least the first night which is tonight. But No, I'm not. I kinda feel something is missing...It's at first A Mix of happy and sad then it become like now...not really contented. Feel Kinda strange...no mood for games nor TV shows. Just Wanna Sit On the Sofa and Stone with all the lights off. Think About Stuff. Hmmm....Blogging too...i just wanna tell someone this, at least to let it out somewhere. Here i am, Blogging About it.
Is this the feeling i gonna get when i leave my mum to live somewhere else?
hmmm.
i seriously have NO LIFE in the Weekdays. really. I have school on tues,wed and thurs only. it's all 2pm to 6pm except wed it's 8am to 12pm. Then After School And On The Two Free Days(Mon&Fri), I'll Play Computer Games and Watch Rubbish Tv Shows Like WILD BOYS...LOL. GOD! GIVE MY WEEKDAY A LIFE! Well, Weekends their are more people that are free so i can like go Lan shop with them or probably Lunch or Dinner. BETTER THAN WEEKDAYS OK! Weekdays Almost everyday School Or Home. A B C D E Fucking Sian Lah. I Know I have said all this before but i just wanna say it again just for sake of letting them out and probably make me feel bettter.
argh...Miss My Mum...and Probably wish my sis die in some horrible death...ER I MEAN I WANT HER TO HAVE FUN. And Charls was telling me i can have parties or club everyday...i told him "FUCK OFF" With 150 bucks my mum gave me, i probably blast some RNB or Techno and Dance at home And Charls Said i Can Grind The Wall. Great. 150 bucks for three meals probably five for two weeks... 150 bucks, Go Clubbing 2 times probably gone liao. LOL.
Before i came back home today, i went for a walk around chinatown alone. Thinking about stuff... Comparing The Past and the Present. Remember Those days we took like 1 minute or even 1 second to choose wad to wear to go out? Now especially girls...they might take an hour or even a night to think about wad to wear. And Do You Remember Those Times That Sport Shoes Goes with anything , anywhere and anytime? Haha...So Much Have Changed Huh...As We Grow Older We Change and Have More Responsibilities. Sometimes It's Scary to Think what i've Accomplished So far for my Future. Cause I have Nothing Much to Think Of. LOL. I'm a very Dreamy Person, So I can Stone well, haha...How Wonderful if I would strike a lottery and don need to work for the rest of my life. What a impossible and Lazy dream huh...
I'm Kinda Felt Sad/Hate/Disappointed myself...STILL in ITE and Doing Totally Nothing Serious Accept my Driving Lesssons, Blurry Future, NO LIFE, Probably Zero Self-Confidence and ZERO determintation. ARGH.
Cant Sleep man...Donno why...Probably The Weird feeling about being alone at home at night or It's Just I Miss Ma. I felt sad not because i need to cook for myself or to do All the Chores, Just felt weird without my ma. Probably Sad is not the word la...Bahhhhhhhh
I Just Need Something to Watch...Something as good or better than Desperate Housewives or Lost Or Animes Like Naurto, Bleach, School Rumble, ETC.
I Just to get Hooked to the Show.
I Just Need The Feeling That Slowly Brings me Into The Show, Like I'm Inside the Show.
I Just Want to Stay In The Show And live With Them.
Maybe I Just Need to be More Mature and Be More Realistic.
But Is Heaven Just Like That?
What Is Heaven Like?
Issit Just like Man Predicted that Heaven is Made Up of Clouds and Sunlight Shining There Forever?
Or Issit in The Black Hole?
Or On Earth Itself? Under the Deep Sea where is too deep for humans to explore?
Or.........Do We Just Disappear? Nah...I Know Heaven's Somewhere.
Or.....................I Can Live Forever?
I Love My Ma.
She Will Live Forever With Me.
=)
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